Here I am up early at 5am. I should be getting ready for walking but today I start at 8am at uni so have to leave here at 7.30am, drop reuben off at school and go over to the uni. The maths lecture starts at 8am and goes til 10am, then I have a maths tutorial at 12 - 1 pm. At 2.45pm I have to pick Reuben up from school, bring him home, Mum will be here and cook dinner for us. I have to go back to uni for another lecture from 4 - 6pm. Oh joy!!! Tuesdays are my big day!!! Im just glad I dont have something on at 6 - 8 like others have. Yuk!!!

Reuben didnt have a great day at school yesterday. He was still upset about his rat being savaged by the cat. He still had one rat left (at steve's) but Steve being the "wonderful man" we all know he is... went and bought him another one!!!! Yes that was sarcasism!!!!

I am struggling with asthma. It started on saturday night. Im not sure if going to the club on Friday night or perhaps the thought of going back to uni??? I was and am glad to be going back but know that its intense.  

Uni Begins 2006

MY 2nd Year of Bachelor of Education at Logan. Wow! I still have to pinch myself some days that I am really doing this.

I am in two minds of going back as many students are right now. One, I am keen as mustard to get back into it. To learn, to study, to get my degree so I can get some money from employment!!! The other mind, is nervous of the unknown. Will I do well? Will I pass the exams? Will I be able to cope with the workload? Of course I will!!! but the nerves are still there.
I have loved the time off but it has been way too long. I feel like I could have done a semester of work while on holiday.
I have worked at Eagleby South for a few weeks and finally felt like I found my groove on the last day. Its such a difficult school. I hope I dont get one like it for my final and most important prac. 

Hug of Friendship

Hug of Friendship

A friend can be like a Teddy Bearto hug and hold when the world has given you all you can bear.

A hug of friendship is an incredible feeling which can mean a lot more if it's given with meaning.
When the world isn't being all that nice,and you feel like nobody could ever care... they'll be right here to hug and hold..and forever be your teddy bear.. There's this thing I like to call friendship pride this simply means neverleaving your friend's side.

Sharing your thoughts,ideas, and goals.. while getting deep into theirhearts and souls.. Friends never make you feel insecure they always support and make you feel right and pure.
Friendship is not a game; if it is, it's a game of chance, that many timesmay lead to romance.. When it's raining outside and there's a storm and it's cold it's always nice to have a warm teddy bear to hold.
Friends always think about each other,sometimes maybe even twentyfour/seven,then sometimes you encounter thosefriends you think were sent from Heaven.So the next time you are feeling like you need someone to hold, come to a true friend with a heart of Gold..
Author Unknown 

Happiness...

Happiness comes of the capacity to feel deeply, to enjoy simply, to think freely, to risk life, to be needed. - Storm Jameson.

What is happiness???

Happiness is ...

... Reuben getting ready in the morning without calling him endless times.

... walking for 45mins with 3 friends on a monday morning at 5.45am!!!

... feeling confident with what I do and say.

Eumundi Markets Saturday...

Today went to these markets near Noosa with Doris and Allison. Wow is all I can say. I saw so many things that I could have bought if I had endless cash!!! Doris twisted my arm to buy a bracelet. Its sterling silver and has a twist in the middle of it. Allison bought her lazy susan for her table too. It is beautiful.

We then went to the Ginger Factory. We had lunch and then looked around. I bought a ginger chocolate bar for mum. After the factory we went over to the macadamia outlet and tried their flavoured nuts. I accidently tried a chilli one. I am SO not a spicy person. I had to go and was my mouth out. However, the honey and sesame ones are my favourite. The sugared ginger pieces were yum too.

After the Macadamia outlet we went to a scrapbook shop at Caloundra. All I can say is... I NEED more money!!! So many things... not enough money!!!

On the way home my mobile rang. It was mum telling me that she had fallen down the stairs of her unit. I hoped it would never happen. She is ok but bruised, cut and sore. I will go around there in the morning and see what else I can do for her. I called in tonight and she was ok. Bloody stairs!!!!

Today's Quote: We must travel in the direction of our fear.
- John Berryman. 

Sadly, I accidently discarded my post about my weight loss. Here I go again...

I have lost 8.9kg in 10 weeks. Walking with the girls everyday has helped so much. Some days are hard to get through without sugar (lollies) and some days I dont even think about it. Having the girls to motivate me to walk has helped incredibly. 

Tom and Katie???

So what is going on with this couple??? Are they still getting married? Are they finished??? Who knows??? and really do we want to really know? They are in Australia to attend the Kerry Packer memorial. You would think that if they were not together that Katie wouldnt be with Tom here in Australia. Do I really care? Im just glad that Nicole Kidman saw the light eventually! 

This is Madonna at the recent British Awards. What was she thinking? What is happening with her hair??? I guess when you have that much money... you just dont care what others think!!! Hey, I need that kind of money!!! LOL 

Kimba's Kommentary

Kim: Ruler; Leader of the warriors. (I never knew Kim meant this!!!!)

K - Kind

I - Imagines

M - Makes people laugh

Three letters is not enough to really describe the Kim that I am... but these 3 are great summary.

Friendship

Friendship is like the breeze,
You can't hold it,
Smell it,
Taste it,
Or know when it's coming,
But you can always feel it,
And you'll always know it's there,
It may come and then go,
But you can know it'll always be back.

- Terri Fanning -

Today's Quote

"I hear and I forget. I see and I remember. I do and I understand."~Confucius

I love this quote! It is so true.

Thursday's Chatter

Wow, what a day. Working at the school is hard work. I cant remember the school being as hard as it is now. I makes me think who will I cope as a teacher? It makes me wonder what the hell I am doing! However, I see what else the teachers could be doing, using strategies that are more appropriate. I just hope I dont to a point where I forget what works or I get too tired to care or that I burn out and cant work anymore. I want to inspire kids to learn. I want to inspire kids to be the best they can be. I want kids to know that there is a bigger world out there.

Tonight I have watched Vegas and Medium. Reuben has come home in a great mood from steve's. I asked steve to bring him home at 8pm. He was more settled and went to bed at 8.30pm.

News today:
Eddie McGuire is taking over Channel 9.

Rudeness in Australia

Can you believe that Primeminster Howard is blaming TV shows for the rudeness of people in Australia. It could well be playing a part in it but honestly, does that mean that individuals arent being held responsible for their own behaviour??? Gosh, I cant believe that Howard is sprouting such disturbing rubbish. If you cant blame the parents or the individual... hey blame the tv!!!!

Tuesdays Chatter!!!

Well what a day!!!

Today, was my first day of work up at the school. My back has ached all day. I didnt realise how much standing up would affect me. I guess thats what happens when you dont work for 2 years!!!! It was great being back there. Everyone was really glad to see me and everyone that knew me asked about Reuben and Uni. It was so good. It feels so odd tho. Some teachers I have no idea who they are. I met the new principal today. He shook my hand. He brought a child in to help me as he needed to do something while he was in the office. I love working with kids. I know that I am doing the right thing. I am looking forward to becoming a teacher. Im looking forward to getting into my prac. I just hope that I get a kind and enthusiastic teacher.

Yesterday, Lauren came over to see Mum. I took Mum to the Commonwealth bank so she could open a new account. Boy that took like over an hour.

Reuben: When I arrived to pick Reuben up from school. He ran to the car, so excited that he got into Touch Footy at school. He was so happy. He asked if we could celebrate by getting a sunday at Maccas. Of course I agreed. It makes me so happy to see him so happy.

TV show watching right now: Ghost Whisperer. The first of the new series.

Fav song right now: Hung Up - Madonna.

Feeling right now: tired, exhausted and sore (back).

Right now: I am happy as I have given some directions to Reuben and although it has taken him time to do them... he hasnt yelled or swore. That is a huge positive for today.

80s music takes me back!

Gosh how music can take you back 20 years!!! So much has happened since then. No wonder mum always said "Dont be in a hurry to grow up!" Thats all I wanted to do... was to grow up and experience life. If only I could see what was ahead... I would have stayed 16 forever. The biggest worry was tests in high school and what you were going to wear out on saturday night. I would love to go back and relive those teenage years but know what I know now. Another thing mum always said was you cant put an old head on young shoulders. I sure understand that now.

Words dont come easy to me... Fergal Sharkey. I loved that song when I was 15... and I still love it now. However, the difference now is that I really understand the lyrics more. Why are we so intelligent yet we find it so difficult to tell others how we really feel. Why do we build such high and dense walls around us? Why is it that once we are hurt by someone we build another layer onto our wall?

50 years... Uncanny Xmen. What a song hey!!! Where will we be in 50 years? Gosh I couldnt see where I would be 20 years ago. I will be 87!!!! wow thats getting old hey!!! I hope that by then I have found my soul mate. The man that is just for me. He must be out there somewhere! A friend of mine just recently told me that she is afraid of being alone forever. There are times/days I feel that way too. There are many times that I love being on my own and its that facade that I put up... down deep inside I would love to have a partner in life to share my/our life/lives. I wonder if, when it will come? I just dont trust myself with the choosing of guys... so one of my new rules is that he must pass the test of my friends interviews. If they say go for it... then I might consider him. My problem is that I have nothing to go by. My dad died when was 14. Mum hasnt had any guy that has been a good role model for me. Looking back, I have always been afraid that no one would want me so perhaps I just grabbed anything that was offered instead of making an intelligent choice. Hmmm... it really makes me think about my life. It makes me think of how much of an influence confidence in yourself plays such an important role in life choices. When you feel good about yourself, you know what you deserve and what you dont. You know where you want to go and what you want to do. Why has it taken me this long to figure it out!!!! I feel like I have been emotionally disable. It helps me realise why I have made such huge mistakes in my life.

Now I realise this... I hope that I make the right choices in future... which I already am in ways. For example, I am going to uni. When I was in year 11, one reason I dropped out was that I was so fearful of letting my mum down if I failed... well what a let down that was with dropping out!!!! Thanks to Katrina and working at the school, has helped me gain so much confidence. The teachers and principal Kathy Roman, they all helped me grow in so many ways. How do you thank them? How can you? Helping someone find confidence, personal growth, develop self esteem... its what I want to give back to my students one day. I want to help them see what they can be, what potential they have.

That is one thing I learnt last year at uni. I already knew that each child has potential... but that it is life long. That the seeds you sow now... will / should come to sprout and grow, even if it is many many years later.

Saturday's Sanity

Well Reuben went to his dad's last night. I went and had dinner with mum. Before we had dinner, we went up to the Hyperdome to a craft shop called Riot. I bought some lino cutting tools to see how I go with making my own stamps. Crossing my fingers!!!! So we come back, drop by my place to pick up Gypsy because she loves going to Grandma's on a Friday night. We have dinner, mum washes up while I try to install her programs. The darn program wouldnt work some strange reason!!!! Other programs that should work in 98 worked on her xp but not this one for recipes. By 8pm I had had enough so Gypsy and I came home.

It rained most of yesterday, hard drenching rain. We really need it though. I love the sound of rain. Reuben, Adam and Damien were playing in the rain for about an hour yesterday. They had a ball. They were soaked and loved it. Reuben instigated it. He said "Lets collect the rain and send it to the government for testing!" He got jars, containers, and plastic bags. It was raining so hard that the water in the gutter was almost half on the road. They were splashing, yelling and having so much fun. It was great to see them really enjoying life. Thats what its all about... not sitting inside playing a playstation. I hope that I can get Reuben outside more this year.

Today, Saturday, well its still raining and by the look of it its been raining all night. Doris and I havent walked today because yesterday the park was sloshy and when I took Mum to have a look at it after picking Gypsy up it was underwater.

Doris, Allison and I are going to DFO. The big discount place near the Airport of Brisbane. They have been before but I havent. When I said that I hadnt been and would love to go, Doris said she would take me. Katrina's not coming. She wants to paint her toilet. She also said last night that she didnt want to walk around alot. Interesting.

Tomorrow, I have planned to see The Family Stone with Doris and Allison. Katrina is not sure if she will go.

Well thats the update for now.

Quote for today:

Action may not always bring happiness, but there is no happiness without action.
- Benjamin Disraeli

This is Reubens rat getting one of his first baths. 

This is my girl. She loves to sniff everything in sight when we go for a walk. She has her lead on her because she gets it in her head that she is the boss and she can go anywhere she likes. When she starts thinking like that she wont listen to me or come when I call her. She's a little buggar some times but I love her to bits. 

Here we are at Burleigh Heads. You can see Surfers Paradise in the background. This is my daughter, Krystyl, 2004 . 

A Boy and His Rat!

My son with his rat, Whiskers. Grandma bought it for him for Christmas 2003. He loves his rat. We got Whiskers a friend but Whiskers is still his favourite Rat. Whiskers will stay on his shoulder forever. I had to draw the line when I saw him letting the rat eat out of his mouth!!!!! EWWWW!
I love this photo!!!